I did not get any lesson media from Saturday. Part of me wishes I had, part of me is glad I didn’t. Eli warmed up fine, but our first full course was a nightmare. I had to circle more than once to get control. After that, I took off my spurs and my trainer told me to stop over-riding. The next course was actually great. That’s why I wish I had video–to see the contrast. We needed to do one more course, and while the first part of it was fine, Eli got away from me again toward the end so I had to pull up and regroup.
Rides like this remind me of my selective memory when it comes to bad rides versus good rides. The overwhelming majority of rides, right down to the overwhelming majority of individual jumps I have taken on any number of horses, are good and some are even great. But guess what stands out? The fall at a liverpool. The rail at a black and white skinny jump. The stop at a 2′ gate (on a known stopper, not even my fault). (None of these things happened on Eli, by the way.) And now this nightmare of a course–one course in one lesson out of dozens and dozens of satisfactory to excellent efforts–is also going to stand out. This is most likely not an advantage in sports. Remembering the good, and how it worked, how I got there, what resulted, how I was rewarded, how my horse was rewarded–these things would be better remembered. My brain needs training as much as my body. My brain needs to highlight the good rides, the good jumps, the fantastic efforts. Yes, remember the bad so as not to recreate it, but remember the good, too, and strive to repeat it.
So now that we all know I desperately need a sports psychologist, let me update you on Eli’s status:
He’s got some swelling I discovered Sunday evening, lower inside of the left front. My initial reaction was AHHHH WHAT THE F. But then I started poking around and assessed the nature of the swelling. He has a scrape right in the middle of the swelling, which appears to be localized and is not all that hot. I don’t think the tendon is implicated. Also, he is sound on it.
Can you even see the scrape? It’s there, I promise. My guess is he did it Sunday in turnout earlier in the day. I decided to work him very lightly because he was sound on it, and I wanted to see if movement helped the swelling to go down. It did go down a little. I then cold-hosed it until I was bored (I can cold hose a LONG time before getting bored) and scrubbed the scrape with Betadine. I threw some wraps on his fronts after the leg dried and put him up for the night. I left my trainer a note so she’d know I know about it. I’ll cold hose it again tonight and probably just hand walk him for a while. This puts us in the questionable category as far as showing on Saturday, especially if the swelling doesn’t go down.
I also managed to butcher his mane a few days ago…
I am definitely having one of those GOD I SUCK AT THIS streaks. Eh, it happens. I’m not overly worried about it and ultimately I am laughing at myself for being unreasonably harsh on myself, but being in the middle of one right before a horse show really, really sucks. However, it is excellent fuel for my “ride better today than yesterday” fire.
It happens to all of us. I am okay with dwelling on the positive because I would like for the negative to be fewer and farther between 🙂
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Yep, the less negative the better!
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Yes this!! lol
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omg, preach. But hoping Eli’s swelling goes down and you can make it to the show. Unless it rains buckets tomorrow and everything gets postponed anyway.
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Right? I don’t even know the rain date yet …
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now that I look at the weather again they seem to have changed their minds from yesterday’s “OMG it’s gon’ flood” to “j/k 10%”.
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I saw that, too, but also an increased chance on Saturday … the show management is going to love that …
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I love the “remember the good in order to repeat it!” That should be all of our mantras!
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Maybe we should make t-shirts …
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Ha! This post is so timely…I had an amazing ride on Friday, then Sunday was a shit show. Definitely need to keep training my brainz to keep in mind the good moments and try to recreate them. 🙂
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Need shit show amnesia!
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Srsly.
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Maybe some ice cream and a nap will help reset the week? 🙂 The mane is not too awful, you should see my horses legs after I tried to clean them up in the dark lol
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I really do need a nap! And since his mane won’t be braided it’s not too bad, it just looks so wonky right in the middle in that pic
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I think it’s good to practice intentional mindfulness. When you catch yourself dwelling on a negative, acknowledge it and then purposefully change your thought to something more positive. Don’t beat yourself up for thinking negatively, just let those thoughts pass and choose a happier one. It takes some work at first but pretty soon it becomes a habit!
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I do need to do a better job of acknowledging the stuff I do well, but you’re right, it takes practice
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Eh, humans tend to remember the bad more often than not. I think it’s one of those survival instincts? Do we still have those? Anyway, thinking only good is just as ineffective as thinking only bad. Remember the bad and what caused you to be in that situation, then don’t do it next time. I’m like you. I think about how I completely bombed my way through one course without remembering how I got it together for the next one. Ya live & ya learn.
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I very much like your balanced approach to thinking about it. My biggest problem seems to emotionally separating myself from the mistakes. When I do something right, I break it down into how it worked and look at it pretty objectively, and I need to look at mistakes and bad rides the same way, instead of just obsessing over it.
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Oh glad there’s a scrape there. That area of swelling always stops my heart at first!
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If there hadn’t been, I’d be a bit more panicky–would have scheduled an ultrasound asap, probably.
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I see the scrape 🙂
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It’s, like, nothing. And yet.
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i hope you can make the show!!! but also yea… i relate. can’t win ’em all!
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Yep, sometimes all we can do is earn a lousy participation grade, lol
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So trues. Bad rides get blown way out of proportion and excellent rides get barely a thought. Retraining the brain needed over here too. Hope Eli’s leg is better.
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Never not retraining the brain.
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